Today 9 years later

I have always been sad about 9/11 and it has affected me as well as the rest of the world.

But something has changed in the past 2.5 years. Now I know the feeling of losing a child so the death of all those children no matter the age carries a little bit deeper in my heart.

Something about the anniversary I know parents semi dread. I will not compare their loss with mine at all because its a loss of a child and still as tragic. Whether their child was in the womb, at a daycare that day or a grown adult.

I'm sure hearing the words "I'm sorry we don't see any caradiac activity", and turning on the tv or getting that dreaded phone call, are no less painful.

So now 9/11 will always be a little harder than it was those years before simply because we walk in the same shoes now. Losing a child isn't just losing a child. It's losing dreams, the future.

I was reading someone else's blog talking about the pictures and such. And I agree for me I do have picture's of Ethan but if they are too painful I can chose to put them away. As parents dealing with the loss of a child, I know that for some of us the pictures are too much sometimes and others we need them.

But for these families today doesn't just mark the anniversary but the families of these children have to deal with the fact the tv, news, peoples facebook pages are more than likely covered with pictures bringing back all those painful memories. It may be healing but it may not be. For me on the anniversary I can chose to go and hide from the rest of the world and not worry about someone or everyone bringing up the death of my son.

9/11 is not about a day but the loss, of course all the strength that came from it too, but its about people. The people who lost children, spouses, parents etc.

I will never forget