I am a mother of six children. Five who walk by my side through life and one spends his birthdays in Heaven. This is my journey through the grieving process.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Ethan's 2nd Heavenly Birthday
"What is family? They were the people who claimed you. In good, in bad, in parts or in whole, they were the ones who showed up, who stayed in there, regardless. It wasn't just about blood relations or shared chromosomes, but something wider, bigger. We had many families over time. Our family of origin, the family we created, and the groups you moved through while all of this was happening: friends, lovers,sometimes even strangers."
I had a few of my family, closest friends and Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep family join in celebrating Ethan's 2nd Heavenly Birthday and Dominique and Katherine captured some wonderful images for me.
Iv always wanted to be a mom as long as I can remember and I knew Id have children. Little did I ever know Id ever be a mom to an Angel in Heaven. While Im blessed to have my children, losing Ethan has thrown my world upside down.
Ethan may not have walked this earth with us but I will till the end of my time celebrate his life, no matter how brief it was.
The journey in grief is never what anyone expects. This is my journey.
These are my thoughts and feelings as I fight for joy.