why does grief have to torment me this way? I just want to see Ethan so much and I'm so sick of feeling this emptiness that I cannot change.
But I was fine all day and here it is almost 9pm and it starts. I know today its not out of no where at least, having the maternity session for NILMDTS today drug it up but I miss him.
I want to hold him, touch his little nose, feet, hands, lips all of it and kiss that little spot between his nose and eyes. I want it so bad.
I MISS MY SON